Chapter 3
So Much Easier
The screen flickers. Always flickering. It’s the first thing I see; sometimes, it feels like the only thing I see. Not real things, not the peeling paint on the ceiling, not the dust motes dancing in the weak sunlight that dares to peek through the grimy blinds. No, just the screen. The offering. The endless, grotesque offering.
It started… I don’t even remember when it truly started. There was always that undercurrent, wasn’t there? A hum in the air, a phantom itch beneath the skin. Dad’s rage… the way he looked at me sometimes, like I was the reason for everything wrong in his miserable life. Mom, always fading, always shrinking, a ghost in her own house… I just wanted to disappear. Escape.
And then I found it, with my dad, ironically. ‘Hardcore’, 1979, where a man almost ends up busting his balls to his own daughter, Kristen Van Dorn, at a bondage dungeon. ‘Taxi Driver’, 1976, by Martin Scorsese and written by Paul Schrader, who directed ‘Hardcore’ two years later, where a young Jodie Foster ...
Dreamstory, Chapter Three: Unitarian Church
UNITARIAN CHURCH
Barnstable Patriot, May 23, 1968
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Speaker for the 11 a.m. service of the Unitarian Church May 26 will be Louis Jacobucci, executive director of MSPCC, who has been chairman of the social concerns committee of the church and is chairman of the prudential committee. Among other activities are membership in Hyannis Rotary; he is also vice president of Cape Cod Community Council and chairman of Community Action Committee of Cape Cod.
"So, look. Miss Andrews."
"Yes."
"You understand this is a very serious charge to bring against anyone."
"Yes."
"Let alone your own brother."
"Yes."
"It never happened."
"Well, actually, it kind of totally did."
"You are deluded."
"Well, that may be, but I would submit that my mental health history is a result of having stuff like that done to me in the first place."
"You lie."
"I don't, actually. In fact, this is the first...
